OBMUD.

oh hi ppl. i haven blogged for sooooooo long. anyways, its cause there's nth much happening to me nowadays. haha. well... back to my OWN room, but my light's not working. -.-
like WAT'S THE USE. i want my own room to study in at 3am in the morning. gosh...
the past 2 days i tried to wake up in the morning to study. but its too cozy so i didnt bother to wake up. u cant blame me. my bed is just so... sexy. HAH. wth am i toking about?! ughhhhh~

hmmms, late for sch today. like wth, it was raining so darn heavily. and suddenly so many cars blocked my father's. UGH. irritating day. having my period. 3day=most heavy day. like WTH, i hate being a woman. had cramps like nth in this world today. i wish i had those pink tablets with me... but no... i didnt... =( so im gonna bring 2 to sch tmr! YAY.

other than tt, the rain is really killing me. not as in i hate the rain, but as in the rain keeps seducing me to sleep. and its like... EXAM PERIOD. ugh~ imagine the gentle breeze blowing my hair, tickling my ears. HAH. tt'll be cool. man, im feeling so random.

anyways, i'd better rush my art. im not even sure of wat to do. as mr tan neglects chanel and i. ='( i wud just have to draw more balls and more balls and more balls. yuhua's crazy about eggs, im crazy about balls. 0=)

bleahhhhhh, nth else to write anymore. feeling so sad as i got trashed in gb so many times today. AHHHH~ and oh ya, im finally a lvl9 in aud. CLAPSSS.

yup, gtg to the *SECRET* website mrs ess told us to check out. heh, i cant type it out cause girls from st nics might happen to see my blog. HAH.

mrs ess ROCKS.

hmmm... just read some blogs. ah, feeling so i-dunno-what-im-feeling now. i mean... ppl get into trouble all my themselves and they vent their anger on like... almost everybody? i mean, i dun wanna offend anyone or whatever. and im on neither side on this issue. infact i dun really care. its cause i think some things aren't really true and u make it into some fact. its seriously COOL.

i reallyreally DONT mind ppl blogging about me or anything tt offends anybody. we CAN critisize ppl if they are really in the wrong. tt i agree with u. but u saying about lousy leaders and stuff. it just pisses my off. (not tt im any leader D=) if u were still in ____ (not to offend u), u wud noe tt our leaders have worked hard to control us.

disputes are inevitable, and i really pity u for needing to accept so many critisisms of ppl. well, because of peer pressure, A is B's best friend, B is C's best friend kinda thing. so ya, rumours will start to spread and gradually, u are accused of sth u dun really mean. like UGH.

frankly speaking, i really missed the sectionals we had together last time. and in the most recent one we had, i was really sorry for u when i heard about ur family stuffs. and i noe u dun mean for such things to happen and ur just a confused girl trying to search for sth to make u feel better. (i think? =S) well, no matter wat, everyone's worthy of this world. maybe leading this kind of life now makes u lead a muchmuch better one next time. being matured enough to face other challenges. critisisms to u wud be like... "whatever."

GOSH, y am i like speaking so irritating-ly?! ok im sorry if i offended u. and i hope we get a GOLD for syf. wish u were there.

WOW. i really dunno wat to say man. im like super in the mood for typing. hmm lets see...

had a fun day in sch once again! hweets. and yeah... but mr tan had to run off to watch some boy named oliver twisting. yea. and im left painting a plate and BALLS. hmm ya. then blablabla...

oh ya, and thanks to faris for somehow treating me lunch. haha, like "NAH, give u $5" kind of thing. haha. yea... i had free lunch and still had $1.05 left. =)

and now, i suddenly dun have the feeling to type anymore. i wonder why...... HAH.

ok, this is like the shortest post for these past few days.
oh YA, and im practising for syf tmr with linghui! ya...
mum nagging. bye!

"im sick of being the family's messenger already..."

"i was thinking if u were to be a better messenger, u wud have saved this family."

well, now im telling u. if YOU were to be a better PERSON, i wudnt even have to save this family from the start. everything wud be fine like it used to be.

enough of all this crap, im done with it.
last night i had to listen to all the depressing thoughts tt my mother had, AGAIN. but this time, i not only listen, but find them very true. u said she nv appreciated u for the things u have done. hey, wat about the past so many times mummy went to see u run and jump? even i didnt support u. mummy went to almost every one of ur competitions. and u say she's not appreciating? and everytime u lost she tried all ways to make u happier. its u tt are not appreciating. i noe im oso not appreciating all the things she'd done, but hey. at least i say thanks when she helps me wash my dishes and thanks when she gives me my pocket money. no matter wat, i dun want to compare anything with u. and i dun want u to compare with me oso as for the past few years u've been doing tt. and im seriously tired of it. sometimes i even feel like im an only child, single parent-ed.

so stop demanding for ppl to improve and start reflecting on urself.
happy anniversary.