Thursday, August 18, 2005
AAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!
damns.. im sick again.. so is sokwun.. HAHA!
anyways.. 2nd day of being a non-love-giver.. its nice.. wat for love some one hu doesnt even care for u? haa.. as wat i told xueli.. this is like me learning piano.. i want to quit but my mother says i will waste all the past years i have learnt piano.. but i want to quit cause i dun wanna waste anymore of those precious years.. i really want to take up other instruments.. like saxophone, violin or flute.. it only needs part of the brain.. but learning piano takes up the whole of my brain! and i HATE it! no one will noe how i feel now man.. no one except yapraeyi aka MYSELF! at my stage now.. im nearer to zero than i am to success.. so y not let me quit now??? altho im learning grade5 now.. i think even players of grade2 can win me.. im not even interested.. y not let me quit?????????? if u say its cause i will at least have chances to find a job next time if i need to, then let me take up another instrument EXCEPT piano! anything except piano! piano is tiring.. feel like chooping off one of my hands so tt i can only concentrate on only half the score.. ARGH! damnit.. damnit.. DAMNIT! if i say i wanna quit again.. the conversation will ONLY end in tears.. tt's y i think i have depression.. cry so easily.. im such a sissy la! no use-idiot-dumbassed-freak.. HOPELESS!!!
anyways.. 2nd day of being a non-love-giver.. its nice.. wat for love some one hu doesnt even care for u? haa.. as wat i told xueli.. this is like me learning piano.. i want to quit but my mother says i will waste all the past years i have learnt piano.. but i want to quit cause i dun wanna waste anymore of those precious years.. i really want to take up other instruments.. like saxophone, violin or flute.. it only needs part of the brain.. but learning piano takes up the whole of my brain! and i HATE it! no one will noe how i feel now man.. no one except yapraeyi aka MYSELF! at my stage now.. im nearer to zero than i am to success.. so y not let me quit now??? altho im learning grade5 now.. i think even players of grade2 can win me.. im not even interested.. y not let me quit?????????? if u say its cause i will at least have chances to find a job next time if i need to, then let me take up another instrument EXCEPT piano! anything except piano! piano is tiring.. feel like chooping off one of my hands so tt i can only concentrate on only half the score.. ARGH! damnit.. damnit.. DAMNIT! if i say i wanna quit again.. the conversation will ONLY end in tears.. tt's y i think i have depression.. cry so easily.. im such a sissy la! no use-idiot-dumbassed-freak.. HOPELESS!!!
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