OBMUD.

firstly, wat did i say to xl from the start? i didnt mean anything bad rite. how was i to noe tt u will be angry about it? tt sms was harmless. and yet u made it until it was so... scary. u think i wud send the message to her if i noe this was going to happen? so i alr learnt my lesson tt smses cant really express wat u really mean. its not tt im blaming u for being angry with me. and its not tt i really think u are petty. i tot u were petty at first because i wudnt be angry if i were u. seriously! as u said, i am different. tt's fine with me. but can u accept this difference i have? cause i dun really think it is worth to end our friendship because of some dumb chem proj. next, im not one hu group ppl individually. again, im different from u. i categorise ppl according to "best friends", "good friends" and "idiots". and u and linghui happens to be in the same group. i am really afraid to lose any one of u. i give linghui more of my attention as i noe her character. she is totally different from u. she's more sensitive, and u are more generous. i need not have to worry about u because i noe u will understand the reasons for my actions. in the first place, i really didnt mean any harm. it was because u were angry with me (when i tot u shudnt be then), tt i was really frustrated because u didnt even bother to say "hi" to me. if u dunno me yet. im one hu really is afraid of losing friends. cause i will be nth without friends.

and at the firstFIRST place, i didnt even remember remembering tt u actually asked me about the grouping. im not blaming u for not repeating ur question, and im also not trying to say tt i dun really care about wat ur saying (i do okay?!). this is y i can feel ur pain when u said tt we pang seh-ed u. well, if it really was the case, perhaps its none of my fault about the grouping thing. cause i really didnt noe ANYTHING about the grouping. i did NOT pangseh u.

say me fake all u want. i dun mean everything? OF COURSE. i mean it when i say i dun mean it. since everyone thinks tt im only faking, its really no use to live any longer. now i reallyreally noe tt smses are FATAL when u use them too often. u will start to become more dependent on them, and soon hurt ppl because of ur insincerity using smses.

so i really do NOT noe wat to say from now onwards. it seems quite impossible to make u forgive me now. so we, i mean, I shud just remain silent until i graduate from this sch, since u dun treat me like u used to anymore.

i dun want to say this, but bye.