OBMUD.

shut up.
i noe how falling in love feels like so u dun have to tell me.

u ARE irritating because u nv tot of how i wud feel when u say such things to me.
u keep sharing ur joy of having YOUR bf.
have u ever realised how depressed i get?
when i can't share ANYTHING with u?

this is y ur irritating.

its partly because i was asleep too.

no matter wat, im still sorry.
im always sorry.
many things end because of me saying sorry.
many things end because im always in the wrong.

it seems like im the only person in the whole world tt noes how to say sorry.
sth like me being the only one hu noes how to use the phone.
watever.
im done with this family.

i'll just runaway...
but score well for my o's.

UGH.

can anyone spare a thought for me?
if u cant, spare me ur room.
im sick of the pathetic atmosphere im in.
i yearn for a time when everybody is at home, talking and eating together happily.
i have wished long enough.

although things have gotten better in the family,
im still treated as nth.

i improved so much since last year.
but im still expected to win ppl from OTHER schs.
cant u at least PRAISE me one time?

its sickening tt everytime i work hard for a paper,
i always get 50+.
partly cause everytime when i work hard, they have to set difficult papers.
and they wud think tt i suck because of all the pathetic passes.
u think i want them?
i wud rather FAIL man.

but again,
i wouldnt want to imagine ur faces if i fail.

but again again,
i dun want to even care.

so,
if i dun get an a1/2 for my chinese paper,
pls rmb to STOP giving me those sickening faces
tt tell me indirectly tt u are disappointed with me.
HEY, im disappointed with myself too ok.
at least TRY to comfort me.

u all must be thinking tt u were always there for me,
encouraging me... blablabla.

think AGAIN.